Apologies

Its been a while since I have written, and for this my deepest apologies- I know that your life probably hinges on what I am venting about; and lately there just hasn't been a lot to say...

It seems that I write better when things are going terrible in my heart, and it just hasn't been going like that a lot lately. I think this may because of this incredible sense of apathy that has begun to take me over. When Kali was initially breaking up with me, she told me (one of those things you will never forget) "It sucks huh? Maybe you will quit putting your heart into things so it doesn't"

Hmmmmm.... true-che bitch. I like your style. I will try and force this out though, try and make something out of words that will be of some sort of entertainment value to someone, promises.

I am tired of homeless people asking me for money. "Got any change" they say to me-- just like the person before me and the person after me. You can't even hear sincerity in their voice anymore. They might as well be Ashlee Simpson singing 'Pieces of Me'. I do have an idea though-- I am gonna start handing out generic deodorant to these people. I mean Christ. I just saw you make 10 dollars in the last 5 minutes. You are obviously not putting down payments on a mortgage or rent, walk over to the Scruffys gift shop and buy some FUCKIN ANTIPERS!

There is this one homeless guy who haunts the Trinity block of 6th nightly. He is white with these crazy dreads, and he really kinda resembles Josh Blue from 'Last Comic Standing'. Well, whenever he asks me for scrill, I tell him no, then he stalks me.

Seriously.

He follows me around looking at me like I just told him the secret to his favorite magic trick, and he is in shock. I almost fought him the other night. I was so pissed that he would not just LEAVE or leave me alone... I yelled at him to no avail... no change of facial expression, nothing. He just kept staring at me. STARING. "I'm sorry bitch! There are two people in the box! No one gets cut in half!!! Shit! Go to 4th! I would obviously be over there if I had more money! See where it says 'dolllllllar drinks>?!??!?!' I'm not here for the view!"

K---

Ill be back tomorrow, maybe today if some real shit happens

C